rackety racket! it's all bouncing around in my head. I ask people's advice. I'm somewhat impressionable. I like the last thing I heard - someone tells me a new story about myself. Maybe over time I calcify around a single image of myself. But I'm a consistent molter.

Current question: not so much whether I should attend grad school. But rather, what that signals about me. La la la this is most all of what I think about and talk about with my friends and peers and advisors these days. Each day, pick someone else from the rolodex or at random and run a short list of "i dunnos" by them. Someday I'll be completely motivated and I'll understand.

It's taxing, to be between cities, to be between focii. To be recasting or examining my sense of purpose or self-image! I find myself sitting and talking and trying to figure stuff out for hours and then I'm exhausted. I'm mentally and even physically exhausted just from thinking too much about stupid stuff! When I would probably be better off, um, cleaning up my house or something.

or updating my web page! (after kill bill 2 with CHecker) posted from the weekend this monday evening, pix and thots from a party, and a wedding. Part of linking in the community from the wedding involved fixing up and posting a page I'd 80% drafted in January 2002, but had never posted until this evening: Lesser and Matmos in Japan. And I added another mobile cartoon, about driving and death:

I already spent 30 minutes color correcting that doodle; now I want to rewrite that poem somehow. But I must sleep - aikido tomorrow morning.