reading enmough of shamanism and yage
to compell partacion of psilocybin
sometimes colours, auras on speakers
hard to concentrate but fun to draw
memory context fragment
drugs in pee,
drinking it retrips
so I found symboplic fulfillment use of my phallic eddie bauer thermos
I'd never really drank pee before
today, mine was thick warm
tasted kind of like guy sex
at once gross and human
remember howard hughes
insane people preserving piss
once you start saving when can you stop?
there's drugs in there!
each gulp was invigorate
power my secret
then I opened my mouth
my breath like a train station bathroom.